everyone should be a taoist.

Compassion. Moderation. Humility. These are the three jewels of the Tao, and quite honestly characteristics we must put more effort into possessing. Because let's be brutally frank here, we all could be more compassionate and humble, and take things more in moderation (as opposed to failing miserably at delaying gratification. We are far too much about instant gratification. This is not nearly as satisfying.) 

In a similar vein, empathy is something we call could use more in our lives as well. 

I propose that this be made the fourth jewel of the Tao! 

Serenity and peace encapsulate the true meaning of Taoism, which I find more appealing than anything. I could include these traits more in my life---but can't we all? We all could be far more at peace with ourselves.

I have come a long way indeed in this aspect, that's for sure. I feel as if I have for the most, found myself and very comfortable with who I am, in more ways than one. Not just purely in my sexuality. I know what I believe in, I know what my values and virtues are that I embrace and I know exactly what I want out of life and I know exactly who I want to be. 

Granted, this may change, because as they say some people don't even know what the fuck they want to do with their lives when they're 40. But as of now at 20, I know my sole passion in life is writing. Whether I make money off of it or not doesn't truly matter. I just want to prove to MYSELF, in SPITE of what others may think that I am a powerful, influential, and wonderful writer. And person. That would be swell too!

I want to make a difference with my writing somehow, and I indeed to do just that. I have started quite awhile ago---last year I believe on my first novel and I am making great progress. It is very strong and original I think. 

It is darkly humorous and definitely unconventional. My prime goal in writing, well one of them, is to mainstream what is taboo. To toss it to the forefront, abruptly, rapidly so everyone can get a taste of it.

Of course, in my book the main character is a lesbian. I think we have a long way to go in terms of overcoming that heterosexual paradigm and coming full circle into realizing that there is nothing different about homosexuality. Why the fuck is it still shocking to see two girls holding hands or two boys holding hands?

It should not be shocking and appalling to say that someone is gay. It's absurd. We have come so far, yet are nowhere near where we want to be.

Anyway, I think lesbianism needs to be more mainstreamed. More so than for instance, stories about gay men, because I don't think lesbianism is something taken very seriously in our culture. Gay life in terms of men is far more glamorized and seen in popular culture. It's absolutely ludicrous. 

It's sexist as well to think that lesbians are not as real as gay men.

Anyway, back to my original topic of conversation. I used to be a really antagonistic person---I would get mad so easily. But this year, I have truly seen myself evolve (not only in that way, but many others.) My Mom, for instance may never see it (because let's be honest everyone loves to point out the negative in people far more so than the positive), but I believe it in my heart to be true. Everyone can be against you, but you should urge yourself to be true to yourself, because you know what's right about yourself more so than anyone.

Anyway, a long time ago, I decided to go on a pilgrimage of sorts with myself, a journey of self-fulfillment and self-discovery. Mentally, emotionally. All in my head. Not a physical trek to Mecca or anything, however it was profound.

It's never an easy feat to take it upon yourself to change something about you. But of course, no one can change you but yourself. And let's get real here, all of us SHOULD change some things about ourselves. The negative things. We all have very negative things. Most people are unaware to this though. 

But I decided to filter out the contempt and swap that with inner peace. I told myself I would LET THINGS GO QUICKLY. Throw irrational cares away, because in the long run they don't mean a damn fucking thing. Plus, they eat one alive.

This is why everyone should be a Taoist. To find self-worth, contentment, and just chilling the fuck out.I have more to say later. Of course.

Next blog post: Everything happens for a reason, so no need to fret right. Give it your all, but if your luck crumbles into oblivion and you get swept up in bullshit do not fret. It will pass. As all things do.