LAME

I can't believe I made an attempt to be one of those micromanagzing, self-important, workaholics who overexert themselves and are involved in approximately 900,000,000 clubs/extracurriculars/organizations/charities/etc. And the like. These are the people who firmly believe that they do not have time for anything or anyone outside of their little asinine world of meaningless drivel and useless status and elitism and equally meaningless and useless and hopeless prestige/elitism what have you. And why the fuck would you spread yourself so thin, launching yourself into things that only somewhat peak your interest---organizations that you can honestly take or leave. If you're not 110% passionate about something and have no positive, intuitive feelings for it, don't do it. Stay far away. Put all of your time, effort and DUENDE into what does matter most to you.
For me: writing and only writing.
Sure, I dabbled in the Gay/Straight Alliance/Feminist club, but I got wretched vibes from them both. I gave it an enormous shot though, I must say. But I felt INCREDIBLY OUT OF PLACE. How bizarre. 
I suppose I wasn't an activist type like I thought I was. Well not in THAT way. I write about equality and feeling misunderstood/like an underdog in a vicious, conformist society a lot in my writing. It's a major theme for me. And this is a far more interesting and engaging manner in which to get a point across as opposed to going all run of the mill waving signs in the street---as if that will help grant us gay marriage. If we want anything done, any progress made, we must think CREATIVELY.
I've realized from my failed clubs/extracurriculars experience here that there's a lot of bullshit in life one must get through in order to come across something with actual substance.
People love to put up facades of self-importance, and use dialect that makes it sound as if they are doing a lot of insanely important shit, and engaged in a lot of crucial business. I've grown to see past that---if you're alert enough you will see the subtleties that harbor the actuality.