I'm so damn exasperated. It's not from working out a lot, because it's mental, emotional. I don't even really care that much about Hot Gym Girl anymore...I'm just kind of feeling very ambivalent about that and most certainly about Ginger Dancer I'll call her haha. Maybe I'm finally learning to not develop feelings for straight girls. That would be marvelous.
I'm so effing DONE with school and grades and bullshit. Essentially only like one more year of that fucking bullshit since senior year=student teaching and thus, doesn't exactly count. I cannot believe it. I am SO not a school person. I'm just not. I never quite got the hang of it in my 17 years or so of formal school...more or less. You do the math!
College proved to be much harder than high school. I don't know why. It's fucked up. I haven't the foggiest clue what my grades are this semester...none of them post them up, but I never bothered to ask, I was too busy catching up with all of the assignments flung at me.
The only good thing about summer is: no school. Eh I kid I'm taking two classes this summer...well hopefully so I can fucking not stay another fucking year at school. GAHHH!
Where am I going with my life? There is far too much pressure in college. More than high school? Probably 'cuz the terrifying real world is just right around the fucking corner.
But you can only take it one step at a time right...no projecting into the future. Go with the flow!