What the fuck cunt?
Am I missing something here. Sadly this other professor who released my hold for me to help me out talked to her 'cuz she just emailed me "I shouldn't have done that, you may want to talk to her, she has to talk to you about specific things." What the eff? Seriously, when all seems to be going great, some bullshit happens to turn it all sour.
Why can't things be just chill and stress-free for once? Well that's life in a nutshell. Problem after problem.
Maybe it's 'cuz...well who knows. I'm gonna be prepared for anything and I'll be able to explain everything for myself.
I have always somehow gotten out of these fucked up academic predicaments.
There has never been a year in my life where there's not academic chaos/mayhem/stress central.
Even in 3rd grade there was severe tumult when I got a 60% on a Math test. Story of my life.
I'm just not a school person. Not to sound like a Holden Caulfield poser type but I'm far from it. I do my own thing and do not well with structure. Although some structure is indeed a wonderful thing. But this is why I'm going to be a teacher---a carefree, empathetic, unstructured, unconventional teacher who will turn the school I'm at over on its ear.
You can bet your boots on it!
I always seem to do something wrong, and yes I have changed a lot through the years and matured, as everyone does but still it's far too easy to fall back into the same patterns.
Three more weeks or so. I am yearning for it. Yet the upcoming summer is stressing me out to the max given that I haven't found a job yet...working on that. I am not gonna be a fucking failure I refuse!!!!!!!! 'Cuz I'm not! I hope this isn't a frightening picture of what's to come. I hope things go more right for me next year. And that I can find an on campus job next year. I need to make some cash money again! Fuck.
End of rant...for now.
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