shocking acts

I used to have some serious anger issues. Not severe to the point of high concern and a judge tossing me in an anger management course, but still pretty fucking bad. These days I don't have much anger at all. Currently only at my academic advisor whose a haughty, self-important cunt. Let's be honest though we all have pent up anger. But this is something that ruffled the wrong feathers with me. Like, it brought up high school memories that infuriated me. That's how anger works. Present situations can be traced back to the past. Parallels are drawn.
Anyway, a massive change I noticed in myself is that I could never, EVER hate anyone.
I detested so many people in high school. 
I hated everyone, and was so fucking apathetic and nonchalant. I was like a ticking bomb.
Now I see the good in the people far more.
I never took the high road in high school.
I felt like such a misfit, and of course I do sometimes nowadays but I've grown up, I know my place in the world now and I know exactly who I am and what I want and what my purpose is.
For the longest time I haven't had much anger. I've been stunningly serene, which is something I never get pegged as.
This year has been such a whirlwind but more than anything, it's been a wonderful, marvelous spectacular eye-opening experience. An exhilarating roller coaster ride. 
I'm gonna look back on it with pure nostalgia and fondness. There have been some of the roughest times of my life that occurred this past year, but looking back it's all so laughable and trivial.
The fights, the drama, falling for one of my closest friends (and one of my livingmates) then getting over her entirely and moving on. We have all evolved so much. 
Next year will bring much more excitement I know. And the hard times will not be repeated. All of this made us all appreciate each other a lot more. 
I'm at such a good place now---just doing this whole irksome school thing to the best of my ability along with everyone else, writing a ton, working out a lot, making an effort to be healthier and succeeding fairly well so far, and actually looking forward to summer to some extent. 
This year has made me feel invincible...odd? 
I have never felt as strong as I have at this very moment.
And clear headed.
I don't like any girl. Okay I think like three girls are hot but that's it---I don't know them. Thank God. And one of them's supposed to have a shitty personality so thank God for that---all I've heard about her is a major turn off. UGH!
Anyway, who knows what next year will bring. 
I fear for certain things of course---what will happen to me academically---will ANYTHING happen romantically? Will I be severely getting hurt from love next year? It's a cruel pattern it seems like.
Or will I finally learn to emotionally detach myself? HAVE I learned this?
It's truly sad that this year is drawing to a close. I feel like I'm running out of time...my college days are rapidly diminishing. 
I don't have a clue what to expect next year. It's scary, but the future IS scary.
Whatever happens is what's meant to happen.
My college life thus far has thrown me on a completely different planet as opposed to my entire life prior to college.
I wasn't even living then.
I only truly have been for two years now. 
I wasn't the person I am today then.
It's astounding how much can change in one year even. Last year seems like ages ago.