Am I gonna be alone forever?

i’m never gonna get what i need

seems like i’ll never find what i’m looking for

immersed in a pool of jealousy 

everyone else has it so damn easy 

if i were they i’d dive right in

unblinking stomach never sinking

no remorse just a par for the course

unflinchingly gazing into the bleak beyond

i’d get what i want when i wave my wand 

i’m fearless but i’m in a cage

want to rip my life story out page by page

in a fit of rage, get the hell off this stage

still living in the ice age 

so obsolete

sometimes i can’t sleep and turn over in my mind

whether i’ll be alone ten years from now

the routine is down pat with all of you

for me, i can’t leap, i have to stick a toe in first

or better yet, leave it be, ‘cuz once the lust hits

it’s all downhill

there’s nothing worse than loving someone you could never have

who could never love you because of your biology

want to shake them all till they comprehend

give me your hand so my heart will mend

walk a mile in my plaid shoes 

then you, too will feel like you could never be loved

never be with anyone ‘cuz everyone in the world is as straight as an arrow

i need to obliterate this cardboard box

pulverize it into dust 

so i can believe again there is a place where that someone is

wish my heart was a numb glacier

i don't want to have feeling

that'll only keep me reeling

i cannot stand falling for more only to have to work tirelessly to put a wall up to the agony
it's time to get over someone again
i cannot cope with trying to get over more girls now. i want to find someone who i don't have to fucking get over for once! a place where i don't have to cautiously tread.