Thursday, November 25, 2010

Good people who do bad things

I have been one of these people. Not for a long time, by any means. But I obliviously ran my mouth and said incredibly imbecilic things. I felt like I was a monster to everyone around me.


It was frightening to me how I unknowingly hurt some of the people I care about most.


I can't help but wonder...will things ever be the same again? Or are they already back to normal? Can we all bounce back that quickly? 


My lack of self-awareness was revolting.


I am absolutely floored that I was seemingly forgiven so rapidly. Maybe it was because I have proven how sincerely sorry I am. 

I have a huge mouth and cannot keep secrets. I spilled a lot of things I shouldn't, not thinking I was doing anyone any harm.

I think things are indeed back to normal, except there will be that tiny little...glint in the back of their minds, that skepticism. They will possibly filter things out to me...until I can prove to them they can trust me with those kinds of things again. I KNOW I can prove myself to be a trustworthy person again. And I WILL.

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