Technically, Jenny is the main character of "The L Word"---and I empathize the most with her. She is very much a Sylvia Plath---a dark, cryptic, egotistical writer who is constantly in her head.
"She's a writer, she's supposed to be that way," Shane says in season two.
Frighteningly enough, I see many parallels between myself and Jenny---the narcissistic tendencies, the dismal, mysterious, nature---well, I mean, I probably don't come off this way whatsoever, but I mean I do fall prey to highly unusual, morbid enthrallments such as my Toni Morrison and Sylvia Plath obsessions. "Beloved", an achingly haunting novel, is one of my favorite books of all time, as well as Capote's "In Cold Blood". I also have an on and off fascination with serial killers---I've watched documentaries on Ted Bundy, Jeffrey Dahmer, Charles Manson, Ed Gein, the Green River Killer, John Wayne Gacy (look him up and then you will come to the realization as to why clowns are so fucking terrifying.)
And don't even get me started on Sylvia Plath---my peculiar self worked tirelessly to emulate her my junior year of high school.
Anyway, does bizarre and twisted things which I can see myself doing---but to a much milder degree. Like she does things that would have any right-minded person thinking, "How the fuck did she think of THAT? What the hell?!"
Like when she concocted an absurdly intricate, convoluted plan to get back at a critic who gave her a poor review of her first novel, "Some of Her Parts," which was criticized as being self-indulgent and self-pitying. "God," I thought to myself, "Sounds like the shit I write." That's never my intention though---my prime goal is to write things that are cathartic to me, that liberate me. Moreover, I write fiction. I am not a memoirist. I would never write a memoir, that's tedious. Fiction and poetry is essentially me. Will it mirror certain instances in my life? Well naturally. That's called being a writer---you organically absorb real life occurrences through an osmosis-esque process and they subconsciously channel out into your writing without you even realizing it. Always. In some way, shape or form.
Jenny is a brilliant writer; she is a genius.
I don't know anyone else who watches the L Word but I can imagine she's highly disliked amongst fans. I personally love her complexities, her darkness, everything she does is so unanticipated. She's such a passionate, ponderous being---fiercely.
Jenny isn't a depressant, although she is very dark and secretive. And yes, she's an egotist, but aren't we all in some manner?
Jenny is drop dead gorgeous though---in spite of her self-loathing and self-harming tendencies. She is a beautiful goddess, and I do pity her quite a bit. The entire duration of the show, her life was one out of control roller coaster ride. And then she mysteriously dies from falling off a rickety stair railing at the end of season six. Poor Jenny. I weeped at her demise. She was a fictional genius who was taken far too soon. One of the most meticulously crafted characters I've ever seen. The show would be nothing without her. Hopefully I don't become the kind of writer that she did---in the negative ways I mean. In terms of the brilliance and the ingenuity, bring it on!

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