i fear...
that if i get too hooked on this new love interest, things will take a turn for the worst.


things always do. when i'm not liking my friends, i'm liking other straight girls.


the only promising one was this past summer but I WAS the one who paradoxically put a stop to it.


she got creepy, clingy, and i didn't find her attractive anymore. i had no interest in meeting up with her.


i don't wish i'm straight, but it would sure as fuck be a lot easier. 


but that doesn't mean i'm gonna lower my standards. i will still follow my heart and go for whoever i am attracted to.


i know i am not the only one out there who has never been in a relationship. i feel like all of us romantics who are ardently waiting for our day to come will surely have our time. we will find someone and they will be the love of our life! our one hit wonder, and that's all we need. 


i do suppose that's far better than going through scads of girlfriends and boyfriends.


i mean, there's a slim to none chance that this girl is into girls. but i guess i will have to be brave and see. and i am brave dammit! 


i truly do hurl myself into these things, biting the bullet and unflinchingly gaze into the bleak abyss.