I LOVE Jodi from the L Word. She is hysterical. She's Bette's deaf girlfriend...a huge, fun-loving party animal, a brilliant sculptor, cook, a hardcore bohemian, hippie-esque lady and an all around badass motherfucker. 
It's so sad when Bette cheats on her with Tina. Bad fucking timing. But then again, Bette and Tina belong together. They are my ideal lesbian couple. I want to be a part of a couple like that someday.


Anyway, it looks like we're pretty much dating now. She took me out to a Mexican restaurant last night, which was delicious and amazing. AND she picked up the tab. I didn't have to pay a single cent! 


She is so fascinating. My ideal girl pretty much. She's very bohemian, free-spirited and chill---which I absolutely love. We have shit in common but I feel like we also have enough differences to make things interesting. 


So we'll see where it goes. I really am trying not to get hurt so I want to take things really slow. I need to see what she wants. I want to go with the flow but see what we want in the long run---do we want to be exclusive/together/a legit couple? Fuck buddies? Casually date but be allowed to see other people? I don't know what I want at all, honestly. All I know is I want to do LOTS of things with her, if you catch my drift. But that's the immature 20 year old horny college student in me.


This is all an excellent precursor to more serious relationships down the line for me I think. This is a great first dating experience. All I truly want is to have fun and we ARE having fun. We're both clearly attracted to each other, and it's just so surprisingly easy. There is no pressure whatsoever. I just hope I don't get emotionally attached somewhere down the line...because it looks like we're gonna seriously hook up. 


Like I'm dead serious I really want to skank out. I'm not going to sugarcoat it. I want SOME. I have all this fucking pent up sexual energy that I have yet to release. I am practically bursting at the seams! Yes, I've made out with girls before...but when drunk or high or whatever. A handful of times at a high school party then this year...regretted it all. Brushed it all aside pretty much. It was fun in the moment but the next day I'm like "Ew." 


And of course I've made out with shittons of guys just for the hell of it, just to stir the pot and have good stories. I've been done with that shit for awhile though. I simply cannot do that anymore. Thank God I'm beyond that stage---making out with people I'm not attracted to haha.