She said: "I just can't be anything more and I don't want to be anything more." 

It's probably me then.

BUT SHE SAID SHE'S DEFINITELY ATTRACTED TO ME.

I'm so fucking confused. Maybe I should stop asking questions 'cuz it's only gonna get me more hurt.

I kind of don't even want to go out tonight now. I want to have one night of wallowing. 

I'm thoroughly mortified. Not with myself though this time. 

Maybe I'm teased by my friends for a reason. Maybe I am seriously a joke. 

This girl can't even take me seriously. But I am NOT going to change who I am at all!