Quite honestly, this has been the hardest year of my life, this past school year. I'm not being melodramatic, I'm being honest. Even the high school hell seems blissful compared to this year.
Nothing seems to go right. 
As I always say, I need divine intervention.
But as for tonight, I'm gonna get alcohol intervention.
SHE is going to regret is so much she didn't tap this when she had the chance! 
My friends were so TRULY wonderful tonight! It blew me away. I love you guys xoxo. It never gets old being reminded by people close to you how much you mean to them/how much they care about you.
They are truly my Sisters as corny as that sounds, but I can say that 'cuz I only have brothers haha.
Some magical things they said that touched me deeply and profoundly:
"We're going to cheer you up!I'm gonna figure out a game for us to play! We're gonna do something fun!"
"You're a great girl, Clare and she is seriously missing out!"
"I hate seeing you like this Clare. I like you just the way you are---crazy and goofy! Someone will love you for who you are, you'll see."
All so true. Well, I sure hope so.
And in terms of another situation I need to stop asking questions and shit because it only hurts me. It's just that at times I'd rather not wonder you know?
But I've decided it doesn't matter much anyway so no need to ask. Because I AM loved. By the people who matter.
SHE treated me really awful today in those texts she was harsh in a lot of what I said accusing me of being some things I'm not.
I don't deserve that, NO ONE does.
My heart's been broken again, but I will get through it. This is the last thing I needed right now, but this year has been hellish so it does not stun me in the least.
But my friend wrote me the most beautiful letter.
I feel so appreciated!
More later. I am determined to have a great time tonight. I don't have much work this weekend anyway I don't think.
I will not feel guilty I deserve this.
Paradoxically enough my Mom texted me earlier and was like, "I saw the King's Speech tonight and it was really about perseverance and such...it really reminded me of you."
It nearly brought me to tears to read this. 
So true. If there's one thing I can do well, it's persevere. I detest it, but I've certainly done it enough.